Sammy

May 7th, 2008

Dear Sam,
Here I sit on yet another damp and dank day. I wanted to let you know that your buddy and pal has landed in the Valley, but only because I had to play hardball with the DA. So I am glad he is close to me yet I have not been able to see him, I wonder how long it takes to get on the visiting list. He said he has still not seen his counselor. I went and spent some more really great time with your folks the other day. It is very clear the love you to pieces! I asked them if I might be able to ride out there one time with them. I would love to re-visit that are while they visit you. Your Mom told me how they played games and sent you back all the critical information you needed to get them on the list. I am certain once they return from California you will be there next great adventure! They also told me that your girly friend came to visit you and you got to suck face! BEWARE sweet one….. girls are evil, especially if you are doing time. Do not let her spin your heart out of control. You are such a handsome young man and one day you will have women flock to you, so without sounding to much like an old nag, I will stop….no not quite yet. I have a lot of experience with this. My first husband is still doing time, thirty years later. I am still in touch with him. I have visited inmate in six states and have participated in many acts I am not very proud of. I have since then seasoned, became a mother and prayed I would never have to see one of my kids inside. When they were little, I would take them to visit a friend of mine hoping to scare the B-Jesus out of them. But as you know it had little impact on their decisions later one. I think that most young people think they are invincible and will never be caught. Well as you look around you can tell that could not be any further from the truth. I know you, me Gabe and your folks and both of our families will survive this, many have gone before you…. However the pain and suffering from all parties is some days unbearable. You have such a great outlook and a positive attitude, DO NOT ever allow them to take that from you. It is to easy to grow bitter, hateful at the rest of the world from inside there. Always remember you have a great family and friends and lots of people who do love and support you. They may be able to house your body but NEVER let them have your spirit….That is what makes you unique! Gabriel is at:
Oregon State Correctional Institution
3405 Deer Park Drive SE
Salem, Oregon 97310-9385

Your Mom also said you have seen more fights than you ever have in your life, you will probably get numb after awhile and think nothing of them…. Well some of the dullest tacks in the drawer dwell amongst you. Gabe has not had that problem yet however he is feeling way out of his element, he is used to having friends and I remind him that no one is your friend inside! The cells where he is are some of the smallest in the sate 6x8 and he has a really fat 21-year-old Muslim roomy who snore like a tornado and spends most of his time on his knees chanting. He does no have a window and his head is 2 feet from the toilet. Well actually his cellies is, his cellie is to fat to be on top, and Gabe of course hangs off the bunk (short). He has found one little guy to work out with but I am sure after a couple weeks he will better adjusted. They only have two table in the cafeteria for neutral inmates ( Not SO, Not Gang affiliated) so he is finding it hard to eat because he always winds up at the un-neutral tables since there is so little seating. Thank god he is large. Like you he will come out a buffed up pimping machine but for now he is just trying to find his own way.
Be Good and don’t think I am going to stop sending you eye candy!
The Momster…. Mars