Dear Matthew

Dear Matthew,
Thank you for the short but sweet letter letting me know you were thinking of me…

Well….

No things are not well here, I am in survival mode, so if there is some delays in my correspondence please understand right now my plates is so full…

Rick has moved out, I have moved on, I have to move ASAP, He drained my account, broke my heart and I am some how relieved…ODD!

I just am a bit overwhelmed right now…. I am confident things well slow down once I am legally separated and in a new place.

Be patient, I am just on the other side of the moon…..

Who knows if we will ever see one another, but if not I have a lifetime of memories to cherish. I will attach the letter I sent out last week when he left at 10:30pm last Wednesday!

August 27th, 2002

Dear Friends and Family,

I wish I was better prepared to address this issue, however it comes with great pain and sorrow.

Rick has made a decision to move forward in his life without me any longer. I will not ever regret a minute we have shared together and will cherish many years of great memories. However he has made the decision to move in with another women he cares greatly for. I have learned over time that there are very few things in my life that I cannot do, and the one that always comes to mind first is “ I cannot change other people”, he is right people do change and grow in different directions, however the day he slipped my wedding ring on my hand, I thought I was the luckiest girl in the world and that there was nothing we could not work through as a team. Sadly, tonight I feel a wide range of emotions most not very pleasant. In time I hope to recuperate from the loss and betrayals.

I feel rich for having met so many wonderful people over the course of our relationship; I will remain hopeful that I can still rely on them. Now is when I will count on you all to find my strengths. I am in a terrible awkward position right now and truly have no idea how I will be recover anytime soon. There are so many loose ends, so many unanswered questions, and financial burdens. I can proudly say with no regrets that I have loved him like with whole heart and will continue to love him for sometime.

Life takes many mysterious turns, many for the best, however it really does not feel so great right now. Tomorrow we will both wake in different homes with different dreams and future, tomorrow we grow, regroup and try to be true to self.

There is an old proverb that goes something like this…
“Just when the caterpillar thought it’s world was about to end, it was then she became a butterfly”

Peace,
Mars