Limes

She wakes and the smell of lime lingers through the room, fogged with dust and the odor of dogs. As she pulls her head from the pillow I hear the ice cubes jar the glass. It is some what a calming sound, like wind-chimes. With each slow sip she reminds me of my parents. Fogged by gin, yet the smell of the lime clouds my memory of that time. Her eyes twinkle as she smiles and slurs as she professes her love. I revert to a safe place within myself as she continues to jabber nothing of importance, as the lime controls my memories... distant yet raw. She needs to go...

all my secrets...

cluttered in drama...

I close my eyes and

feel my soul harboring

smiles and tears...

if you look closely you

can see the secrets are me...

I am alive again....

It is virtually crazy how time has passed an with each waking day I develop a great sense of self... I really never though I would be in a permanent relationship again... yet here I am finding myself not only in a relationship but actually living with someone. I really could not think of a better place to be. I have found a genuine soul... Very different, so kind, so generous, he has my best interest all the time. 
I have come a long ways from a lifestyle that was killing me slowly. It took great determination to self dissect myself and clearly see the faults of mine that were polluting  my soul and spirit. 
I took the biggest leap in my own human experience to allow love in and to actually be taught what a loving relationship looked like. To completely trust in faith to guide me to this  place. 
He is broken in arenas as I am as well but together we seem to be able to communicate and forge forward in healing one another. 
Today I am just where I belong! Living, Learning and Loving!

Heart

I have heart....
No one can take that from me!